Afflictions Eclipsed by Glory


Psalms 30:5 Weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

I was listening to a song early this morning by the David Crowder Band called “How he loves”. The song was written by John Mark McMillan My favorite line from the whole song is as follows:

When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions Eclipsed by glory and I realize just how beautiful You are And how great Your affections are for me.

That song got me thinking the whole day. Afflictions typically are eclipsed by glory. As a believer, you will go through trials and temptations. Sometime in between that trial you feel spent and you really feel like you want to throw in the towel and give up! You must know what I am talking about! That moment when you feel like the whole world is caving in and you have more questions than answers. That period when you feel like the whole world has turned upside down and you are hanging by a thread. That time when the bible seems foreign and you cannot find soothing verses for the trial you are going through.

I always tell myself when I go through such episodes that a breakthrough is imminent. The enemy sees a blessing and this is their last attempt to thwart you and throw you off course.

For the past few months I was going through a lot at work. I tried to get out of my current workplace by applying to several places. I was convinced that the only way out of my trials is out of that door. I was tired of spiritual battles. Then God reminded me that he is the one who led me in that job- effortlessly and he would lead me out –WHEN IT’S TIME! I changed my prayer from “get me out” to “give me strength”. I was then guided to read the book on “Good Morning Holy Spirit” written by Benny Hinn. It gave me profound peace and refreshed my soul.

Immediately after I completed the book, I renewed my mind and my thinking. I consulted God in every small deed and welcomed him to take over. In less than a month God touched my superiors and I became highly favored.

My superiors created a job description tailored for me specifically. I will no longer be under the managers who got me hard pressed in every possible way.

If you are going through a rough patch. Keep this verse in mind:

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

Remember that the darkest hour is right before down…and of course- your afflictions are bound to be eclipsed by glory!

AMEN AND AMEN! Blessed be the name of my merciful God!

Birth Control is condemned in the Bible? (My Mirena Story)


I started using birth control 7 years ago. I was young and had no guidance whatsoever regarding relationships and sex. I was a virgin and entered a relationship that was not stable at all. I decided to start using contraceptives. I was interested in one that was cost effective as I was a student at that time. My choices were narrowed to one- the depo shot. I started using in and I had no outward side effects at all. I was very happy with the birth control. I went along with that year with the normal hustle and bustle of school and work. One day when I came out of a lecture in University,  I saw that a couple of nursing students had set up some desks and were taking students blood pressure among other things. One sweet nursing student took several tests and in shock she stated, “Your bone density is way below normal. You should see a doctor”. After research that night, I realized that one of the side effects of the Depo-Provera/Depo Shot is that it eats away your calcium and hence the low bone density. It is important that  individuals on this form of birth control take Calcium supplements. I stopped taking the depo shot.

A few years later after I got my daughter, I chose to be on the Mirena. I did extensive research and also spoke to the doctor regarding my choice. He convinced me that the Mirena only releases the hormones into your uterus and that it has “hardly any” side effects. I schedueled an appointment and got fitted for the Intra-Uterine System on Oct 2011. I was 127lbs. A few months later I weighed 150lbs and was noticing gradual change on my physical, emotional and mental health. I did not at once think that it was the Mirena.

In the beginning of January 2014, things took a turn for the worst. I started became stressed, fatigued, anxious and also developed some acne. The acne particularly was strange to me because I have never had skin problems since I was born. I also started having joint pain and on and off again Carpal tunnel issues. One day I was at work and I felt like I was about to pass out and the room was spinning. I immediately ran into the doctor’s office and had several tests done to check for Diabetes, Anemia, Thyroid Problems etc. All tests came back fine and I insisted that he does another round. He had no diagnosis whatsoever so I trusted God for healing through prayer and of course faith.

In May 2014, I stumbled upon several videos, blogs and message boards that spoke about the ills of Mirena. Many women had similar side effects if not worse. I was still not entirely convinced until I spoke to a close friend of mine who had the Mirena System taken out before the 5 years were up. She had gained 70lbs in 3 years and developed thyroid issues. She also mentioned that she became impatient with her child. I then scheduled to take the Mirena out soon after that conversation.

On May 7th 2014, I walked into my OBGYN’s office and had the system removed. I discussed my issues regarding Mirena but he did not seem convinced that it was the system. 2 days later my acne cleared and my energy started to improve. Call me crazy, but I definitely think the Mirena is to blame.

Sex is sacred and was created by God. Sex has certain rules and has a lot of responsibility tied to it. I know I should not be talking about that because I have engaged in pre-marital sex… but now it all makes sense.  How I wish my parents would have counseled me on this. Parents of today are so quick to fit such evil contraceptives once they realize their children are sexually active. Their concern seems to be pregnancy. I have several friends who have been using contraceptives since the age of 16.  SIXTEEN FOR HEAVENS SAKE!

Sex has become a casual act… like shaking hands. I know that this is not what God had planned. Contraceptives has somewhat been used to aid this lifestyle that we have become accustomed to. We are going against our bodies natural way of functioning and in turn we are paying hefty fines.

Pope Piux XI spoke against contraception:

Any use whatsoever of matrimony exercised in such a way that the act is deliberately frustrated in its natural power to generate life is an offense against the law of God and of nature, and those who indulge in such are branded with the guilt of a grave sin.- Pope Pius XI


The phrase I would like to stress is the fact that contraceptives deliberately frustrate what nature intended.

Please watch this video that I found on youtube. It will give you more questions than answers…but I think it is worth it the watch.




“Live life as if everything is rigged in your favor.” -Rumi.

ImageI was watching Arianna Huffington on Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday. She gave a wealth of advice…the one that particularly stuck with me was when she said, “Slow Down and Remain Present”. That is something that seems awfully difficult to do especially when you look at your career and think of what walls you still need to scale to realize your dreams! I feel like saying, “Arianna, I need to be hitting the accelerator and not the brakes!”

Arianna Huffington is the epitome of success.  Aside from starting her news website The Huffington Post, she is also a world renown author. She shared of how she was so busy to the point that she was overcome by exhaustion and dropped down. The world was telling her to slow down!

When I look at my life now, I am on an upward incline. However, I think I am doing too much and forgetting what is important. We need to realize that we as humans have no control over our life, God does. In Philippians, it speaks of God strengthening us. We do not strengthen ourselves. Even if we work 10 additional hours in our week, we are not strengthening ourselves. Perhaps we are attempting to do so, but in the end it is remains a futile attempt.

“Taking it slow” to me means finding a balance in life, even the word of God, it says there is a time for everything. Arianna said that “multi-tasking” does not exist but instead “task switching” does. That is something I need to realize. I need to start my day, earnestly seeking God’s wisdom on how to tackle my duties, ask for strength and thank him- for his mercies that are new every morning and his Grace that is sufficient for me! “Taking it slow” also means taking a moment to be away from the internet, T.V and all these noise! In High school we were urged to take quiet time and be still. I need to do that! Set aside quiet time and dedicate it to  the Holy Spirit and I.

Arianna also said that as humans we only do 10%, so we need to do 100% of that 10% but guess what, the rest is up to GOD! How refreshing!

She also mentioned her favorite quote- “Live life as if everything is rigged in your favor.” -Rumi. That sounds very similar to: Everything works to the Good of those who love him- Romans 8:28. You see, even if life throws you a curve ball, God aligns or “riggs” it to our favor or good!

Woo Hoo! Praise My Jesus!

Terrorism in Kenya- Thika Blasts

On August 7th 1998, I was in our childhood home in Upper Hill. It was a beautiful colonial home that kind of had an unusual structure. It was a bungalow and somewhat elevated, kind of like a house on stilts.  We were very close to the Central Business District in Nairobi. I was playing around with my younger sisters. I can re-call we were running around the dinning table when we heard a loud blast and the house shook.

We lived nearby a local police station and the guards nearby were talking about some blast that happened in the town. This was something strange; we had never experienced such an atrocity. As a child I could neither explain nor even fathom what I felt or what I heard. The thought that people would come with ill will to harm us. A little later a relative of ours came, bloodied and he requested my elder brother to take him to the hospital. He probably walked all the way from the Central Business District. That was when we switched on the news. There was a bomb blast in Nairobi and a building had collapsed.

On August 7th 1998, I was ten years old. Ten!  I still have images of the American Ambassador to Kenya- Bushnell being rushed out of the town.

I am saddened that Kenya has yet again been attacked, repeatedly, in an attempt to instill fear in the hearts of the regular wananchi (citizens). I am saddened that children are now getting to feel the fear I felt when I was 10- on a daily basis.

I heard about the blasts on Thika road today and even watched a video of innocent citizens who have been dismembered due to the blast. I cried, I cried, “Holy Spirit, what is this?”

I have got to understand quite a bit this past few years regarding lots of things i.e. forgiveness, love, faith etc. However, I am yet to come close to an answer for this.

Obviously, the government is partly to blame because of corrupt systems in placed that entertained “chai/bribes” for so many years. These same systems are now sheltering the enemy.

I want this terrorism issue to end! Period! I want us not be worried about whether we will be blown up at a bus terminal or at a marathon but rather worry about the silly stuff…you know…what matatu will come. What will be the fare etc.

I don’t know the solution to this, but I am so touched by this issue. I pray that the Holy Spirit will counsel me and guide me on this. My heart bleeds for Kenya, my heart bleeds for the victims.